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I can't believe that July is almost here. It has been so busy and stressful since Logan has been born that time has just been flying by. I promised myself that I would enjoy my newborn and I feel like I have missed it once again.
I have been in such a "funk" lately. I am always so stressed, grumpy, irritated, can't concentrate and just can't seem to have fun. I am not depressed, at least I don't think so. I feel good about my body and I am already down to my pre-pregnancy weight. I guess I just don't deal with stress that well. I am blessed to have a wonderful husband to put up with me. I know that it has been hard on him, but overall he has been great.
The kids are both wonderful, but Grace is such a little handful and can wear on me by the end of the day. She is full of energy and curiosity. I guess I need to take more time to sit back, relax and take time to myself. I guess that part of my problem is that I don't feel like I have much worth. Being a SAHM is a very trying job, that you don't get paid for and of course your kids don't thank you for doing it. Matthew does a great job at making sure I know how much he appreciates me. I guess most of it is just me and the fact that doing what I do is a never ending job. It is pretty much the same thing, day after day.
All of this being said I wouldn't change it for the world. My feelings of inadequacy and stress aside, I would rather be here with my kids then anywhere else. The other day I was reading a story about a family in Florida who picked their 5 month old up from the sitter's house one night and ended up having to rush him to the ER that night. After much investigation the authorities came to the conclusion that the baby had Shaken Baby Syndrome and that the caregiver was responsible. This happened int he beginning of May and that little boy is still fighting for his life. This being said I feel fortunate that I can be the one responsible for my kids care during the day. In addition to this I also don't get to miss a thing. Sure I am here for the bad, but also the good. Every word, roll, step, crawl, smile, giggle, laugh, hug and kiss, I am here for it all. I have said it before and I will say it again, rather then getting paid in money I get paid in kisses and cuddles.
Today is going much better and I feel so much better today. I think that is mostly because my son has slept really well the last two nights and also because I have sat back and genuinely enjoyed my kids yesterday and today.
Her are some pictures of some of the things that make all this worth it!
